Drinking is BAD

Lets see where to begin?!??!  Ok Saturday was going to be a great fun night but ya know how alcohol makes you...and to find out that Tim had met Kelly for lunch after i moved out well that just made it much much worse and caused me to drink way to much so much i dont even remember the whole night...i do remember him saying he will have no contact with her in any way form or fashion and that makes me happy...i HATE her...yes a strong word but i do...if she likes married unaviliable men good for her but i highly suggest she go looking else where or she will be sorry!  He picked me over her a long time ago and he married me...that should tell her something...it sure does me that he LOVES ME!  Enough about the bitch...well i had already told myself i wasnt going to drink anymore well it didnt work out so well...i have seriously got to STOP!  It is becoming a huge problem and i refuse to let it ruin my life or make me loose things in my life...I would like to apologize to Melissa and Clint for my crazy drunk behavior on Saturday and thank you Melissa for taking care of me...i promise it will NEVER happen again!  Tim thank you for loving me and not leaving me on the side of the road or leaving forever i will not drink anymore!  Its not good for you, me, us or my weight loss!  

I made good money at the restraunt this weekend but we spent most all of it going out which is ok i just wish i wouldnt have made it not a good time...Yesterday while doing laundry i washed tims phone :(  i opened the washer to put the jeans in the dryer and there it was...i feel AWFUL!  But he has the phone insurance so for $50 they will send him a new one i hope his memory card and sim card still work!  Friday before work i went to Rue 21 to check out their huge sale i got 5 shirts a nighty thing and pair of flip flops all under $40!  GO ME!  LOL!  I really need clothes that fit i wish i would have found some jeans and shorts maybe another store with a sale will have some!  Well thats all ive got for now...