Update

Wow life is crazy right now! I finally got paid at Phazar on February 18th for my last 3 checks! I have been working 2 jobs to keep gas in my tank food in my tummy and bills paid. Im waitressing at Buffalo Wings and Rings i really like working there the people i work with are fun and our regulars make it even better...some nights i dont make as much as id like to but other nights i bank! I generally am the server who makes the most not sure what the others are doing wrong but so long as im making money its ok lol! I dont work 2 jobs cause i love to work. Phazar well now were going to be TUS Aerospace and they still cannot gurantee us pay on paydates...joys! My skin head tummy and body in general cannot take much more! If i get a good job offer i will definatly be taking it! Dont get me wrong i love working at Phazar but i dont love not knowing if/when i will be paid! I need security in the financial department! Were supposed to go to florida in april for vacation all this depends on how pay goes here at phazar. My grandpa was in the hospital earlier this week for his heart again they upped his meds and hopefully that will help hes back home and i guess doing as good as can be expected. Tim went with me to see him at the hospiatl didnt know he was in ICU til we got there i wanted to vomit as we walked through those doors! Then when we left i just cried and cried even though hes ok and not doing horrible...my grandparents were supposed to live forever! Im so close to them they kept me more when i was younger than my parents i think! Tim has been so great lately! When i first started my new job he was wanting me to quit and was always angry and yelling and just mean...well he still wants me to quit...but when we are together he is great! He now always wears his wedding ring(before he wouldnt wear it cause he didnt like it), idk hes just being so great and loving like more so than ever and i love it! On friday nights Tim, Bryan, Jessica and Sharayah all come up to eat dinner and see me! We have had a couple of talks about baby making, lol, and so long as jobs and such keep going good want to start trying in the summer of 2010...yes i know this coming from the 2 people who said they would never have kids but something just hit me a couple of weeks ago maybe cause i know im not getting any younger idk...i agree its crazy! I am so lucky to have Sharyah and Jessica in my life right now they have helped me so much through these troublesome times and tim likes then and they like him! I love them dearly for all that they ahve done and hope we all stay friends forever! Were going to go on a girls road trip this summer maybe to float the river or soemthing if we get rain that is! If not im sure we will find something else to do! Tim is going to do a charity race next month its a whole weekend ordeal it should be a lot of fun and its for a good cause! Well i think thats all i got for now! Check for more updates later!